Confess Your Mess
Confess Your Mess

Episode · 2 months ago

Couple’s Therapy & The Bloody Chair w/ Keith Leak Jr.

ABOUT THIS EPISODE

This week, the guys get silly and have a pillow fight with actor and regular Smosh cast member Keith Leak Jr. Subjects of discussion include Ohio, a fake name, a bloody chair, and a coin slot, and Keith opens up about his ongoing battle with cancer. He also reveals a secret you would never expect from an Angelino.

If you'd like a chance to hear your secret revealed on the podcast, you can submit your secret on our website: ConfessYourMess.us

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Strawt media, why the fuck are you having a meltdown right now? When? Why and why am I marry? I can't reach it. You you do this. Retire, you know I have. I know what. I've been wondering what it's been disappearing. That means all these episodes. I probably think that it's lit over there and it's probably nothing. Shine. Nobody care. As a podcast, I care the video quality, integrity. Good God, can you tell me? Shot five episodes this week and we had a twohour plan or or meeting with our entire wedding planning team. Earlier today he was over here moving pillows. Had Me Thinking, Oh, this is my audio test. Yeah, I'm recording anyway. What's up, y'all? Welcome to confess your mess. I'm a mill in his junior, joined by my loving fiance. Y'All, if you don't know what this podcast is, we do listener submitted secrets every single week and we have a celebrity guest, an influencer friend. We bring them on and they break down these secrets with us, and we're very excited about today's guests because they're one of the funniest people that I know and I really mean that I met this person when I worked. It clever. They worked across the hall and well, I guess one of those defy before we all got laid off and wow, how I came up. Yeah, who whole situation not up in three am, all right, but but yeah, so we worked, we worked across the hall and key leak junior is who we have on the pipe. I have a question because in your your bio that you said, it says, first of all, I didn't know you're a middle name was O'Brian Keith, O'Brien leak the second. So then my question says because I'm a junior. So technically our second and junior interchangeable. I can I start going by a mill and it's the second. Well, let me explain, please, do you? So my parents, my parents shout out to Kelly and Keith, Dick, Keith. They did not like Julia. They straight up told me they were like Yo, like we don't like junior. Did it? that it up and I don't know, somewhere around the like I was trying to figure out should I just go by Keigh leak? I was like, I can't, because you know, my dad is like kind of like an industry and like all of that, and I want to like give, you know, respect to him, but I was like Keith Leek, Junior. I think that kind of has more like of a rain than the second. I don't know. So I kind of just I went with the junior. My mom was like why are you a junior? Own that. We did that. Don't purpose, boy. We can. I tell you a little bit of a secret about him. You'll and it's junior over here, like blow he and I never really understood this and I don't think you have an answer for me, but you're probably going to snap me right now and I say this, but technically you shouldn't even be a junior. Yes, I should know. Your Dad should be a junior because your grandfather's no, also a meal. Actually just incorrect and I can't give you an answer. And the reason why is because the spelling of my dad and my that doesn't make sense. So his grandfather spell the name a and El, a meal, but then when his father was born they changed as your correct, as your dad have the same middle name as you, as your middle name different. That's exactly it's. So my grandfather was a mill Dallas Innis I am a mill not same middle name and it's junior. And my father is a mill same middle name in his senior. So technical, wild. Hold on, hold on, hold on, you. I'm not about to have me come on the show and say you not about to tell me a secret to hell. I can. I'm sure I can google it and if I don't, I don't think you can find him. I'm pretty sure. Oh, my middle name is not get online. It better not be at okay. So then my final question with the name before we actually get into the purpose of this podcast. So is Your Dad Technically Keith? Does he go by Keith Leek Senior? Yes, he does, okay, goes by Keith O'Brien Leek. So always wonder when you like, was my dad always a mile in his senior or did that come after I was born? I don't and definitely comes after you're okay,...

...and that they're not like they don't have that when you're born. That's when they get that that senior. Can Imagine someone says I'm going to be a senior and then they don't even end up having like a son that they can pass that name off to. When they were senior. I can't even imagine what if you were Aja Gibson senior. I'm still a little bit hung up on the O'Brien middle name over it sounds very Irish. My family's a quarter are so this I got a story for you there. So I found out, I want to the leak family reunion in North Caroline. A lot of my family stays out there. I'm from all high oh here we travel. Are we go? Oh, Jesus, Ohio, near Lima. He hates when I meet people from Ohio because I always that's like I'm of being. Where are they from? I'm from like, okay, so I'm from Middletown. Okay, okay, hold on, I need you to break it down. Of Trash. That part of the state's listen. So I but it's like forty five minutes away from Cincinnati and date. My Dad's from Dayton. We I moved to Cincinnati when I went to the performing arts high school. I was way so like I spent time in a big like, you know, a big city. One high school to go too. That's CPA. A way. Okay. So my sister lives and get to earn and Northern Kentucky, but works in Cincinnati. Yet while I family in Louisville, my sister's down in Union Kentucky, right across the river by Fort Mitchell, Covington Hill area. Okay, yeah, you were just in Cincinnati having dinner for my dad's seventy the pro if you months ago, and meal and I flew in for the weekend. But middletown is where my story starts, because Middletown is where I went to my very first theme park called Americana. I don't even know if you're old enough to know. You know America all the it was like a wooden roller coaster. Yeah, Oh, school. Yeah, yeah, I was actually lives like five minutes away, a five minute drive from there, going down Middletown, like that's son. So he's like, that's not my gay ass. When I was an immacutic conception elementary school, Catholic school, we took a field trip there with our youth group one time and went to Americana theme park and I like played games all day and one as many tokens or whatever as I could to get a black silk screen. New Kids on the block pillow. Nobody knew I was gay. Humiliating, but new kids on the block. Also kind of slap Jordan night, Joey McIntyre, come on, oh no, no, they weren't Mac up with you. Donny Wahlberg, Danny would and that other one. I forget who the fifth one was. Well, you were very remember. Okay, wow, so every single episode we like to kick it off with AJ doing his segment. Yeah, so here's how school works. In order to trust you, Keith, with our listeners submitted confessions. We want to know that you're down, that you can actually reveal a little bit about yourself. Now, you brought us a confession of your own that you're going to reveal the end of the podcast. This is not that moment. Just yeah, this is more like a bad habit or a vice or something you just can't quit. We like to call this one your mess. But, yeah, was not expecting a Tia and some marry that that last I don't know, mess me. I feel like I will be to you. I want to be tomorrow. Okay, Uh Huh Oh, well, that worked out right the first thing. Trust me. Yeah, you've had to compromise, right, I'll see, I'm some mare. That's like that. I like that. All right, what's your mess? But yeah, it's okay. I don't know if I see yeah, yeah, but like, so my dog needs to get some more shots. It's the thing. But, like she has had like doggy play dates with other dogs. No, and I messed up. No, but this is the thing. She's fine. She is fine, but, like, I just realized this is the first time that I'm saying this out here, and now this is I'm putting it out there because I want Ya to trust me. I'm a really good dog down pork chop loves me, like pork chop is the cutest thing. She's over there in her gated community right now, but she got a whole room to herself. But like it's been like, I think, like a month. I haven't...

...gotten her her shot checkup situation together and she had a playdate like last week and I was like, oh my gosh, you don't have two shots, and I was like, Oh my God, like this is kind of like covid and he like it just got real weird for me. So I gotta take her to get her shots because I don't want to like, you know, you know, I feel kind of bad. That's just the case. Just thinky. So what you're saying, is you an anti vaxer? That's what you just admitted here. I got a shot. I've got I got my last year. You're funny. For that, I had to I had got okay, so, not to like bring down the move, but this year, and I like to talk about it, I was diagnosed with cancer. Yeah, I was diagnosed with cancer, and at first I was worried about the the the vaccine. Of course, like a lot of people are, specially people of Color, and they just got to the point where's I, Oh, you, you bat cancer, and I was like, let'm gonna he get this digest in case, let me go ahead get this shot and, you know, also for work as well. And I'm okay, everybody who's a guest it. I really believe into this vaccine. So like yeah, I got it, and I'm poor. He's gonna get her shots too, so let's let's move on with definitely gonna get her shots. And you, you are, you are a good dog that. You did post that one too. That one time, though, I didn't you enter pork chop. Okay, now, don't start it out, because I'm just I'm minding my business. I was taking around like this is before she was getting her shots, and this is okay. So this is another thing. This is before she got her shots. But I wanted to walk her a little bit. I wanted to just to walk her because she has her paths, are her gated community and every right. But I decided, let me just walk her a little bit so she gets used to because she's gonna get her shots in two days. Man, I'm walking her ass, Bitch, walk at her and like she decided she didn't want to walk anymore, which is a problem for me. Right. So I start running. I'm like dogs, likely you run some running. So I'm just like Whoo, whoople food, and her little ass decides to run under me. HMMM, under due. Stream replaced run. Yeah, and and I heard, I heard, and I was like, Oh now, I heard her cry a couple times, you know, but it usually it was it was prolongedness time. Yeah, and that threw me off and I was like my baby, my baby. I don't know, like why I became like a southern mom, like I don't know. I was really confused, but I was just like my baby, like no, so I knew something was wrong. I had put her down. I came right I'm going to down cheese. I put so this is a kind may you know. Sometimes you drop your baby on the hand. I thought she's like all you put her down. I dropped our dog Kingston on the head when he was a buppy. You said he but on her to nail and of her life. I have no poor shop is still in the gated communities. I stay good, seen she's over there. I might show you, show her and a little bit, but from there I put her down in her gated community. Once I got home and she ended up, she said she cried. I was like something's broken. So the next day I took her to the emergency room because I wanted to see if it was like whatever, you know, and once I took her to the emergency room they're like man, you fracture through your harbone. Fracture did I'm just like God it, I don't know why I just did that reaction, like I noticed story and you're like, thousands of dollars later, dogs are expensive to every time for dogs broken. Our dog broken fingernail on the cost of seven hundred bucks one time. So dogs are not finger nail. It was bleeding profusely. Yeah, couldn't give her like some a crylick or something. I find now that I'm looking back, I should have listen, let me tell you something. This is going to be really fun. We're going to get into our secrets and for this episode we wanted to do fun, silly, lighthearted secrets. I believe, frank that's the theme that we chose. Have a thing different everything really. So let's get into the fair secret. This is from anonymous male California. Y'All, we can know this person every time. We can know this person there in California, Fornar, Ohio, one of US says, but we might new that mean. I know is one of the largest states, but hey, okay, some guys...

...like tits, some guys like ass. I secretly like belly buttons and the Coin Slot Part of the butt crack. Never told anyone. Wait, what is the coin slots part? coinslts like very top. I think that's part of the top. Yeah, because when you put a coin. Yeah, O, a Jy like that part. That's my favorite part of him. Yeah, our body was a favorite part. If Oh, it feels weird when he touches there. It's like a very it's not a because it's it's weird for you and it's weird for me. It's he likes that part, but it's like my tailbones kind of dare to and like yeah, like that. When we were like what, we used to like live in trees and stuff like that. We had tails and then they went away. Eventually we evolved. We all came from Africa and God, I don't know which came first, but we used to have tails probably. I mean that's what a tailbone is. I know, I get that. What I gotta do. If, well, he's like touching that plason, that's probably for you. It is funny because to be a tail there. Okay, as, I'm sorry, I wasn't connected to that. It was like a stretch. I was wishing. Where is the trees? I take one anthropology class of college twenty years ago. Okay, so so they secret you secretly, like belly buttons and the coin slap part of the Butt Crack, not TNA. Okay, yeah, are they saying that they don't liked it to and mass? HMM. I follow up question. First physical feature that you notice, Keith on somebody, I would say the smile. HMM. The smile is very contagious. So was your so was your doll, by the way. So Watch out, get the think smiles. It's something about a smile that like. I'm like, Oh, this is not yeah, I mean, but the belly bum part. Okay, so this is the thing. So you don't like that? A meal, right, right, Aj you. That's what you like as this. Do you guys think this is going to be an issue later on, like when Y'all get married? Don't work. We we started cup with. We have it tomorrow, tomorrow, beyond a little therapy. I'm just coming from somebody who ain't had it. They damnselves. Yeah, make me knee, I'll be at therapist. Know he does. The spot. The spot is fine. It's not my favorite, my favorite spot, but to this, to this person, to anonymous male in California who we may or may not know, thank you for sharing that. And you know what you like is what you like. Yeah, okay, anonymous female Minnesota. When I was in the seventh grade, I snuck into my teacher's office to try and take a test back before she crated it, because I knew I felt it. She had this Tan Colored Swivel Chair and I was sitting in it looking for my test, found the test, stood up and saw a dark reddish brown spot on the seat. Wait a minute and felt weird between the legs. Ran Out, went to the bathroom and realized I'd have my first period on my teacher's chair. I never got caught, but I doubt she ever got that stain out. Way. That's on period. Yeah, and that's some period. Oh my God, can you emmy embarrassment? Wow, listen, the Lord works in mysterious ways. You were trying to change the score on your test. Or No, damn, that thinks you're trying to the teacher, and even great to guess. I think that's where money was trying to break in a steel her test back. Don't she was trying to steal it before she even graded it. So my question is, once you took it back, what was going to happen when your test was missing, and she knows, she's gonna Change All some answers and put it back. She probably realized I got some answers wrong and I have to fix the real quick. She's gonna swap it out real quick. That's too risky. That's a lot I just said. I'm so glad that I was like I love women. I like I grew up with all girls. I'm so glad I didn't like the periods. That is next level. Like it's just like you're it's all, it's cleaning yourself, it's cleaning itself, but it's almost like it's your body hates you with that, I know right, like you hate your body like it's just a whole munch. I think God that I was. Yes, that's unfortunate. And I have a friend...

...back in middle school. Yeah, I won't say her name, of course, but I remember we are at lunch and it's so messed up because people, kids, can be really, really cruel. Yeah, but I remember she had like a blood spot on her like, you know, like on her area. You know, we could see it and nobody said anything for a while and like it's like people came up to me, I'm pointed at it and I was like, Oh my God, like what do you do? Like what do you do? And like like it had been out for like a good minute, so like more than enough people seen it. But then the incredible girl came around and was like hey, scep them that. And Yeah, I think about that all the time because it's just like I grew up with the sister. My sister was owner that me. She definitely had her period. Yeah, I could have went up to this this young lady and told her, like, you know, we got little bleve of back there, you know. But I did what you think about all the time. Do you ever consider it like messaging hey back when we were apologize you. You had that little spot. Listen, I just want to say I had one of my best friends my freshman year of college. Her name is Megan and and I can say her first name because she actually is the reason for the story. But we were at a party when I sh had khaki's on and she blowed through and still saw her. That's a real graphic. But listen, she just through. She'd literally own that Shit and we started calling her cooter and that was her nickname through it. To this day, we still call her couter, and she is. She called herself that. He's okay, was as funny. She like owned the moment and kind of like try to get ahead of the joke and literally we're in our s now, when her nickname is still cooter. No, I feel like she cries about that sometimes. Yeah, this which that up he's like, I'm almost they still calling me couter all these years later. One other thing about this story is really interesting to me. She said she went into her junior high teacher's office. Do Your did your junior high teacher? Did any of your teachers have offices? No, she I think, when she said about this. Oh yeah, that makes me think of like a college professor. I didn't know high school school teachers how well. You know, some people go to like fancy schools. Might be like, I'm in school. They got their classroom and they gott have their own price and office. I haven't elementary. Yeah, MMM, they got money, got it. Okay, my last thing with this. I get what you're saying, but the reason why I say was so risky is because there's already a risk going in there to take the test out, but then you have to have a risk that when you're going to like have the time to go back in there and she's not there and put the test back before she you know what I mean. It's just a it's a lot of things you have to calculate in order to make sure this plan works effective. Ever, time you about the time I was in high school and Biology Class, so listen to this. So I didn't cheat often, only when I didn't feel like studying. And everybody cheated where I came from. Yes, of course. And so this girl, my one of my very best friends, Katie, and she said she got the test ahead of the the quiz or the test whatever, getting ready to say somebody got it. So she got the answers for me and she got on to me and I wrote them all down. was like ACCB ad like that. Both sort of you know test. And so I take the thing, turn it in. The whole class gets a hundred and I get like like twenty eight or something like crazy. Let everybody and he's going through and he's talking about the grades and he's like Aj he keeps me after class. Nicest guy in the world. His name is Mr Kennedy, keeps me after class and he's like well, it would seem that you had all the right answers somehow, but you were off by one. And I was like what, what do you mean? She thought to be funny to give me the answers and leave out the first one. So my entire test was off by one and he knew it and busted me because of it and she ended up being a good friend of mine later and was a friend of mine before that too, and even like I was like one of the like I wasn't one of the cool kids. I was like kind of like the Middle Right is one of those is kind of a nerve, but like I have his friends knock coool kids. And as she thought that she was going to get like such a laugh out of everybody, even like like the cool guys who like teach me and called me gay J and made fun of me and Sh like...

...that, like, Damn, Kitty, no, I know that's thank you. I this. That's really not traumatic for me at all. My fiance is not wearing his engagement ringing. You're laughing at gage, but they were like this Katie, like damn, that was cold. That devastated me. So, just like you're still traumatized by a gay Jay, maybe couter still traumatized by cooter and I out there. We're going to take a quick commercial broad right. Welcome back to I almost said the morning be. That's my radio show. I say it so many times. Welcome back to confess your mess, get it right, Aj it's key Emil Aj in. Our good friend cooter having as well. Letting go a meal. I don't have woman. Okay, let's get to our next secret from Gracie, female Las Vegas. I've been in Las Vegas. I might have passed by you on the board walk. Is it a board? Will you call them the Strip? Anyway, last year, senior year of high school, I thought it would be funny to give my family golden retriever and inverted Mohawk. So I use my dad's clippers to shave a line down his spine from head to tell. Blamed it on my full little sister and to this day my parents still think that she did it. Oh my God, you gotta come clean. It's about time that you really you need to apologize to your sister and the golden retriever. Oh yeah, the golden retriever as well. I'm sorry, but, like your sister, that's a messed up. I know y'all grow like I have been trying to like fix some of the things I have, like I have a couple sisters, yeah, and I've been trying to like fix certain things that I messed up as a kid, and I think it's I remember my sister. We used to like my mom is a jokester and where we all joke and all play, and sometimes I could tell that my older sister she would get the you know, just she would get the she would get the worst of it. And I remember I have been drinking with some friends and I ended up calling my sister. I was like, I just want to apologize to you because I realize that you didn't deserve it. This funny if it was funny now. I said yeah, but you were really Ur. I've been drinking but like, I just Woun't dude it. Now that I'm sorree, Oh my God, I was in high school. Used to blame it on my little brother because I'd protect my sister. I have a younger sister I protected forever. She goes me a few apologies right now. That's neither here nor there. But my younger brother, my step brother, I used to blame him for to that stand out off the top of my mind. One involved drinking. I'll get to that one next. The first one, though, was when the Internet came out and we got our first computer and used to have to dial up and go dial UMP, and I looked up I think like Gaycom and like buttcom or whatever, peniscom. I'd had no idea how the Internet work back then. I'll try to look up Gaye. I was trying. I was curious. I was in high school. I was going through my emotions and my parents found gaycom on there and I blamed it on him. It was like junior high. I was in high schools. I think it must have been Derek. That was problem what he was doing so messed up. Ad I'm gay as the day is long. He's married to a woman of three or two kids now. God Wow. And then the second story. One time I was a lifeguard to protect and save lives, right and I was a life guard and one summer the pool had been shut down because they were building a new swimming pool. I got a like a multimillion dollar pool like replacing the old one. So we didn't have one for summer. But there was a pond outside of town that had a beach and like it was roped off and their lifeguard towers out there in a concession stand at the big park and people would go swim there in the summertime. So they hired a few of US senior lifeguards the ones they really trusted, who were really good at their jobs, like me, to go out there and work in the summertime while it is kind of sprinkling.

One day we were like this is stupid. Nobody's here, nobody's going to swim the entire day and usually if it rained, they would like to send you home. They didn't do it that day and my Buddy Ryan and that were out there and we're just sitting this truck the whole time because we're like, okay, we can't get out and sit in the rain, so we're going to sit in the truck while nobody's here. We decided to go back to my place because we have a the refrigerator in the garage, you know, like grandma. Usually have the one of the garage with all like the Sohow doesn't stuff? We had one of the garage that was full of beer. So I go home and take a whole bunch of beer out, go back and we sit there and we throw back a few while we're lifeguarding on the clock, and then my parents like a good time. I know. Well, my it's nobody was swimming. It was a good time. Somebody was something. Imagine something would happen. Rights, my drowned and I'm like drunk at a truck, like working for the city, and so they asked me what happened and again blamed it on Derek. Wow, little brother got the brunt of so much. Wow, I don't I don't have any stories to relate to. And comes to siblings, be because my sister's eighteen years older than me, so I didn't really grow up her in the house. So, God, I had you. That were so good then. Yeah, I was. I was a studo on the yell. Yeah, we're not going to raise my sister, and I do love Donna. All Right, here we go. This is our final secret before we get to keep the secret. Oh, this is from Luke male Texas. My name is Luke Jes. Luke not short for anything. Wait, well, I'm we didn't have to say that. A wow. When I first met my girlfriend, seem more sophisticated, I lied and said my full name was Lucien. Okay, I understand that what you though. This okay, and I kind of just forgot I did that. We've been together six months and the other day I heard tell her grandma on the phone that my full name is Lucien and I realize I never told her was a lie, and now I'm like, what do I do? Ye, Lucien, is that is Lucy, like Italian? What is that? Lucien? I don't know. They P I mean they it does sound fancy. Lokey. That's not a bad name, Lucy. It's spell l you see I. and that's how they spelt it, mum, and I don't understand what. So was he nervous? was that the reason that like he did? That is trying to sound cooler, maybe sound more people. Honestly, I'm be real with you. I think people are weird sometime. I'm not calling you. We're in Louke, but like little like, you did not have to switch up your name, because then that's a whole life that you have to like conteine you down the line. YEA like. Look, we are talking about this right now, Luke. It's time for you to come claim man. And then what if this is actually Luke Skywalker? He's like, it's nothing else, it's Luke. You did the most and you did not have to do that. If you if you ever feel like you're going into a relationship because you're six months and so this is for Luc anybody else who's listening. If you ever feel like after going to relationship and present somebody who you're not, just know, actually, let's take it out of relationships, just in life. Yeah, if you ever, and I feel like you keep me and mill you aj we all a really good at this. If you are putting out a version of yourself that is not who you are, you're going to attract and get the things that are related to what you're putting out. Yeah, so that's the time cat passes by. You might be attracting opportunity or attracting people who are attracted to what you're putting out, but then you realize that's not really me, and also you'll slowly become that version that you continue to repetitively put out here, and then you're going to be so like unsettled in your soul because it's not going to be an alignment with who you ask. Truly all in the solid God. I've been hearing the word alignment, saying the word alignment a lot this whole week. So this is like speaking to like my my soul right now. It really is, because, like you said, a mill like we do, like we have to put on a certain version of ourselves. But, like, I mean, like even doing that for so long, I had to learn not to do certain things. I'm like, hold on, that's not how I that's not me. So, like why would I even play into right that? And it's just like, I think, the more I've done it, people just want to see who you are and get to know you. So, like loom, don't do that. Don't do that again, man, don't do it again for future...

...relationships. It's just like you said, and you attract what you put out, and I'm glad, I'm really glad you brought that up, though, because the obviously we've been like joking and fake bickering and stuff in this podcast and everything, but just to get serious for a little bit, it was a shock. It was almost a year ago, or might be over year, depend on when this comes out, that you did your announcement on instagram. Don't you want to call it announcement, but you revealed that you had cancer. And I will saying somebody who I know you. I don't know you super well, but if somebody who's followed you for years now and who knows your personality and just what you do for a living, bringing people joy. It was really hard to see that you were going through something. You were very, you know, vocal and open to all of your followers about, you know, what you were dealing with. Now that you are a year out of that situation, or since you revealed that, I was saying, look, it's it's an ongoing fight, it's an on. Yeah, what is it? What is it been like for you? How do you how do you maintain your joy when dealing with something that can be so traumatic and so scary? See, yeah, scary. It's scary as hell, y'all. So when I first got diagnosed, it was it was shocking. It was like I'm like, I'm twenty nine, this is a rare type of cancer, you know. I just like my stomach was starting to stumor, my stomach was starting to protrude on one side and I was in pain. I thought I had like a SID replay. It's a whole like situation. That happened before I was diagnosed. Come to find out I had a ten like almost a ten inch like tumor just like growing like after I found out that I had that growth in everything before I've been found out I had cancer. My stomach grew and I like even took pictures, maternity pictures, because I love pregnant. I look twelve months pregnant. It's not not even like possible to be twelve months pregnant, but my black ass was tilt mouths pregnant, this bitch, and I just remember doing a maternity shoot and trying to make the best of the situation, because that's how I was brought up, that's how my mom is. We like make Joe's, but we get serious and everything, and I have a really great support system. So, like, I was very like positive. But then it gets to a point where life happens and then you get to a point of I don't want to say, well, it was me, but you start to also realize how how serious, like is severe it is, because it's just like I might have to live with this type of cancer for the rest of my life. It grows back after even surgery, you know, Chemo therapy, pills, like why is this happening, and happening to me, like, why do I deserve this? Like, I'll be honest with you, since we're here. This is a secret. Like last week I did not want to, I wasn't feeling good. Jow, I was not feeling good. I did not want to be around. That's the the realness of it. Sometimes, like everything is cool and it's like I can do this. You know, you getting some good gigs over here. Certain people are noticing you. You know, like living a life out here, but it gets to a point where, like, you know, I have to go to I still work at smash, you know, I film with them, and sometimes I have to go and I have to make people laughing. I don't want to laugh when Shit ain't funny, you know what I mean. Granted, I do have them at support. They're like so, like, Keith, are you good? They're always asking me if I'm okay. It's just more so what I'm going through. Like I'm like how are you today, and I'm like, I was like, but I got to do it, like let's go, like you know what I mean, like this gives me energy because I don't feel good today and I'm gone to some really, really, really dark places. And I when I made the announcement and when I said it, I was like I want to be transparent, but then it's like a level of like I got to keep some things to myself until I heal as well, you know what I mean. I have, like I know some people...

...who are doing some things and but they haven't healed from it. It's just like I don't want to talk about certain things unless I healed from it, and I like I healed from last week. That's the only reason I'm saying that. I feel better. I have my mom. She prayed with me, like I'm like a PK. My Dad is a minister, know that. Yeah, I'm out here with Kay to really yeah, we gotta Lot to talk about, um, but like just deep down in church, like but as a ministers were a musician as well, and like I had been, you know, going through my own journey, my own like my own walk, and seeing like what works for me and how I honestly feel, and like it's something about my mom just pray for me, and it felt so right, and that was the the it felt. It felt good, Jow, it felt really good just to have somebody, not even sometimes I'll say this, like you know, when I talk to my mom about the situation, it our talk about her, she's like giving me, you know, like she's talking to me. In a sense, it's like okay, well, you got to do this, you got to do this this time. She did not give me that energy because I couldn't handle it. She just started praying, calling out to God and crying with me, and it felt good. It was a good situation. So it's up and down. Sometimes I feel good, sometimes I don't. And it's beyond physically, it's like mentally. It's the mental part. I'm not necessarily in pain anymore. Every now and again the pay comes. But like, it's up and down, you know. That's how I handle it. It's every day at a time, every day. It is just that you shared. That is so beautiful and we will continue to pray for you, obviously, and and for continued healing and for a different outcome than you've been told you're going to have. You know, maybe this isn't something you have to live with forever. Maybe they've been so many advances in medicine and things like that recently because of Covid as a sort of silver lining. So maybe that leads to something that leads to something that leads to something that helps you. MOM received it amen. But also it's interesting how mother's and also, first ladies, because his mom knows how to pray over our lives. Sometimes it's she if I ask her for prayer. I don't do it often, but I when I do, I reserve it for the things. They're really, really, really neat help with me and it always turns around very quickly. But, Um, it's also interesting MOMS. I feel like his MOMS tend to Nag. I'm from Ohio. Two moms are like a NAG right. Well, know how hand I think. I think sometimes it's an age thing. Maybe right around the age of thirty or you hit your mid s or you go through something serious in life and something switches and they see you as something different than just their child for the first time and realized, Oh, that's not what my child needs right right, would just right now. And it sounds like your mom did that right. She knew it was a it was a different fellowing that I like express to her, and she was like, I do a change tactic, because that's not like don't you do it? And if she would have did that, shit would have been done. Oh Tom clicked, like I don't got time. You know, isn't such a beautiful thing that when you get to that, that that part of the relationship with your parents, like years of passed and now you realize, like now that you're getting older, you're finding new relationship to your parents, because I didn't always have the relationship I have with my mom and dad now, even a few years ago, and even to that standpoint. You remember this and I won't reveal what she revealed, but when my mom was here one time, if you reveal something to us, I was like, well, I'm so glad you told me that, because I suffered from that. So, wow, maybe it's genetics, may like, and we start to bond over this and then when I'm going through that. Actually, I'm very public about it. It was about depression. Yeah, she kind of opened up to us, saying, like, you know, I get depressed sometimes and my parents don't talk about that stuff, and that was the first time that she ever opened us one that thinks she prayed over me. Yeah, I also struggle with depression. I have might and then, of course, I mean depression. A lot of people struggle to the pression, don't even realize realize it, but then, but then try to move out to this city and make it in this industry from where we all come from. Georgia, Ohio, like you're going to be depressed. It's hard. Yeah, even if it looks like you're so dope and you're killing it every day, like, chances are the...

...day that video dropped or the day we're on red carpet, of the day we're doing this thing that looks really cool, that it's going up on our social media, that could have been weeks ago and that day I might actually be real down and like the the the extreme highs and extreme loads the industry. So you have those amazing beautiful days and then after that day happens, you know you might be find the next day, then the day after that you're like, oh, we'll be back to the same shared this. I say that and I guess it's a representation. I said the dope for your pictures are on your social media, the more depressed you are. I promise you it can be true, but also, look, you're true. But yeah, our pics be kind of dope. I mean I like to be trashed my pictures. My pictures are real nice and I might be looking you if you if you go to keeps Instagram, I will say Keith always has. Don't do you just have photographer friends, I matter. I have you on the pilot. What. What is that? Because you always have like amazing yeah, professional photos, like an artsy person. Kid, like. Yeah, still like. I just like things that look cool. I like cool. Yeah, clothes, I like. It's honestly, moving to Cincinnati and like being like around just so many, like just just seeing kids express themselves gave me like. I always just want to be looked at as an artist. I want people to see me as that. So that's it's very intentional, but it's also why am you know what I mean? It's just like what I like. I like things that look good. HOW DO WE LOSE? Oh, Oh, Oh, no, Oh, I don't no phone die. Frank I think keeps phone died. Think Keith is gone. I think Keith's phone is no longer in service and we're going to wait just a few minutes till it comes back and then actually edit that out, because you know technology. But I phoned her. Terrible, but yeah, I guess we can just take a quick commercial break and come back. Sure, Keith, this why he's all so I'm so embarrassed. Why is he so zoom? Dude, wait, I love that is going. I love is going inside to side. I'm embarrass now because I don't know, don't know, tell nobody, but God right, that look. I was about to but I was I was about to blame my cast that's what my cancer cut off my phone. Listen, Keith is back and we're back from commercial break. That's right. Yeah, and it's the time we've been waiting for, Keith, this time for you to confess your mess. All right, all right, so I'm gonna just get right into it. This is a lot for me right now. Very little people know this about myself, but I am thirty years old and I don't know how to dry wait, what, wait, I just I oh, thirty years Oh what? And I don't know how to maneuver a vehicle. Wait, don't right now. Yeah, how do you get around? You get around for everywhere. She who outen you guys. It is like it got to the point where at first it was like a bit and it was like not even a funny bit, and I've honestly gotten afraid to even like try to do it. I didn't have the desire to do it for the longest and people were like, how do you ask it out, Ubert, like I don't know the last time I'm taken like actual public transportation. We no, no, like this is se I'm not making this nursending so much money on. I mean cars are expensive now to but yeah, get all that money for gas, but you can't drive. I don't know how. Why? I wait, okay, don't know. So we don't know. Listening, I don't know how. You need to tell what was going on down Middletown. So we both grew up in Ohio and when I see in a half we're going for that learners permit. Okay, I'll be honest with you. So, like most people when they're like kids, like my boys, everybody like Yo, like I'm out to get this car. I'm like, all right, think I'll just like pick me up. But this is the thing. I don't have you. I don't know. People don't pick me up anymore. Hub if I get around now, I have. I've been I've spent fifty dollars here, sixty...

...if I got to get her. I've done it all, y'all, and I'm getting to the point where I think of me confessing this right now is showing me how dumb you know, and how ridiculous I am by not doing it, because it's not that I can't even afford the cars. It's like I just I don't know how. You know, I'm how to operate. One pass wowed, like I crooked the wow. No, you're like, Oh, no, no, yeah, I don't think you crick here. I mean you're a little off. That's that's mostly about the car way. Now your side ways again, the other I keep missing. IIM'm just hold it, listen. So the thing is, though, if there was one time where my car was years ago, my cars in the shop, at the Uber Everywhere and I was like, I can't do this, because when you have to run multiple errands, you can't tell that Ubert driver to wait for you. Have to get a brand new Uber Man. That's what I do it and I do it. I get around. I definitely get around. People don't understand how I get around. I like, if I got somewhere to be called, I i'Ma be there. Like I don't ask for rides as very it's very it's kind of scrubby. I'M gonna be real with you. It's a little scrubby. You know. It's like sit on the passenger side of the best friend's right, you know, but, but, but I wanted to make this always wonder. I was like, Yo, what can I actually say? And I knew that this will put some fire like under my ass. Yeah, because I'm looking at like a Jay's like yeah, like, I like this guy's vibe. He's from Ohio's gotta good energy, he's funny. He shared his cancer story with us and it's so touching. He's a preachers kid, but you can't drive a hardy he never get when I see you in the mill. I was going to church one time and I seen you in a mill. I was like, Oh, day school, it's cool guy, but I just I kind of I'm kind of embarrassed that I just lost points with you. Now, Ohio brethren, some points. All right, this is the thing. I don't. I don't and, Um, I know. This year I decided that I would actually put in the effort to listen. Now this is the first time. I gotta, I gotta speak all true. I gotta speak my truth. A lot of people don't know. I mean, people want me to drive more than I actually want to. Yeah, but I'm thirty years old job. It's like, okay, the bits been done. For ten years. Bro Like, what the Hell Are you doing? It's not that you man. You could do a whole series on Keith learning how to drive or watch that. I talked about it to people. I don't talked about it to people and I thought about it, but I'm like, you know what, I don't even know if I'm going to put that like yeah, I'm not about to see me in those moments. Those moments are going to be special. I don't know. Hey, I don't like me. No more. No, I just can't wrap my brain around it. I just got anyway what we get all like from people. We get all types of secrets from our guests, and so sometimes they're super silly, sometimes we're like, oh, that's cute, like whatever. I really didn't know what to expect in that secret. Like it's secrets don't usually shut. We talked about secrets on time. They don't necessarily shock me. Is Very rare nowadays I get a secret that shock but was not expecting because I could making me like yeah, I cheated on somebody, that's the secret of mine, or like I have this this phobia. That makes sense to me. I can wrap my brain. I'd like, I'm basically trying to understand how you could even be thirty and not drive a car. Like I've said, I don't get. I'm like, I'm a living witness. It's Dooble, definitely doable. Do it I do all the time. Definitely a preachest did living witness. Well, well, I'm fracture port chop's feet when I'll pep fracture her toes. We was up in almost every day, every a couple times a week so she could change her splint up in an ober lived. I prayed. I was doing ober mostly, but you know, I switch over sometimes. I look at the prices just to be like. I don't say you know. You know. Lift tries to talk to you like you like make me like start a friendship with you. Two of the drivers. They talked right. I like what there no conversation? Conversation. Oh my gosh, you are absolutely fantastic and that was such a fun episode of it started start off, you know, with a little a little bickering between the couple, and then it...

...ended in some heartwarming moments and then a shocking secret. Do you want to apologize right now? That you're trying to? So we're going to we'RE gonna knowledge. I apologize earlier. Look, can I just say this? I just say this. I'M gonna take some driving classes and y'all continue to take some couples counsel deal, deal, we are not writing with you anytime soon, though. Call US right, three years. Okay, it's fine that I won't be riding with myself some some scares. Wait, hello, though. Oh yeah, we'll see. Porktop O, porkshop really is the cutest dog. Torrible porktop reminds me of my sister's rating. Your rest in peace, dog, Mr he was. He was really US pork chops one Paul look funny, though. Now, okay, so, Keith, last thing before we let you go. Every single episode we'd like to do a takeaway of the day. So from this episode, what would you say is your takeaway of the day? I love that you guys are getting married, but I don't know if I can do marry. BILLOWS ARE gonna be brought up. Look, I feel I might need to just be by myself, be up. Listen, it's been it's been almost a decade. So we just have we have this stupid we just war each other down. Like I know, I don't know that that is a take away. Thank you so so very much, and best of luck with everything and keep killing him man. Yeah, well know, guys, thanks for having me. This was awesome. Hopefully, like whenever you guys do something I love to be a part of, I really respect everything that you guys are doing and, like, thanks for dealing with me and my bullshit. No, you are hilarious and we will keep you in our prayers and we forfet you. Thank you. Thanks, Keith. Confess your mess is a straw HP media podcast produced by Ryan Tilton and Frank Driscol. Thank you so much for listening and don't forget to subscribe and share. And if you have a secret you want to share, go to confessor mess to us to submit. Your secret could end up in the show.

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